yay!!!!! :-)

today's been a great day!

the work day went relatively well... not much to report, back to having pretty much nil customers again lol

after work was good fun

i went to see my psychiatrist... talked about how i've been going since my reduction of medication from 150mg to 100mg.... how i've started this blog and it's really enjoyable, and getting great comments back from others about my thoughts and feelings... talked about not really enjoying my job and looking for something else as i need more money... and at the end of it all, he asked how i felt i was coping with it..

i said "it's like i'm at a point where i appear to not really care about anything, not that i don't care, i do... it's just that with all the problems going on around me, work, finances, medical things etc, i really don't rate them that highly on the stress meter... i'm just dealing with it as it comes along and seeing where it's all taking me"

then he asked me if i was happy to stay at 100mg or if i'd like to go down to 50mg!

woo hoo! i'm going to get my new script filled tomorrow :-)

he wants me to come back in a week before i head to portugal to see how i'm travelling on the new dosage just to be sure i'll be fine for the trip overseas..... talked about trying to keep taking my tablets at the same interval (i.e. roughly every 24 hours, so it might switch over from being a dinner time tablet, to a day time tablet whilst over there)

then had a lovely dinner with paul at the souva bar - we ate on the street under cover, watched and listened to the rain - it was such a lovely sight and sound...

so the weather finally changed from muggy sticky tropical humidity to a lovely cool calm aired evening... i have a few windows open in the house to air it out a bit so it's fresh for when i head to bed later on tonight

then i stopped in to see my sleep doctor on the way home... he seems to have a different photo in his frame opposite his desk each time i have been there... this time it was a face shot of him with his beret/old man's cap, bit of a goatee and suckin on a large pipe..... WOOF! i was half tempted to jump over and take a photo of it to keep for myself for special occasions.... LOL he's got a lovely voice, and yeah it reminds me of someone i used to love, but i don't care, as per above, that thought doesn't rate high on my stress meter anymore :-) but because he's a bit cute, and the voice, and the photo of him... makes me a bit more shy than normal - i couldn't look him in the eyes when he was talking about the printouts he'd just given me for my own records, or if i chose to see a dental specialist in ballarat to talk about getting (another!) splint to assist with my breathing at night during sleep.....

*deep breath* where was i?!

oh yeah... so i got another month worth of nasal patches of what i'm currently on, and then another month supply of patches the next level down (which targets more snoring than my apnea problem, and is about a third of the cost of the other patches) so i can try them both out and compare to see how i go...

should give me enough to get through portugal and back again...

then came home and called mum to wish her happy birthday and talk about my day - she's pleased to hear about my meds going down in dosage... she's also pleased to hear of my target that may actually happen - to get off the meds altogether by the end of the year :-)

now i can just relax on the couch, watch some winnylosers on tv and head to bed for a good night sleep (fingers crossed!)

have a nice day off tomorrow at home, interspersed with a trip to the medical centre to pay for the nasal patches that i got tonight, and perhaps a trip to the plumber to find out exactly what i need to do to check for grit or dirt in the pump of the water tank to stop it kicking in and re-pressurising every 5-10 minutes... there's heaps of water in the tank and i want to use it without having to go outside and turn the pump on and off to avoid the intermittent problem!

fingers crossed my passport comes tomorrow and my train pornos too... that would be nice and it's almost the middle of march! otherwise i might buzz them and ask if there's been a delay and get another copy posted out...

and andrew is coming to visit on saturday :-) be great to see him, haven't seen him since our drive to nsw back in january... i'm hoping the tomato plants put on a good show of some RED tomatoes - it's autumn and it's well overdue for some ripe tomatoes!

i'm blabbering... and the rain is starting again.... and i have tv to watch... and i think i might have a chai latte thingo out of the coffee machiney thingymabobbywhatsidoobey......

righto then!