just about done... grrrr....

"oh my golly gosh" said mrs lemcke...

as did i this morning when my gut pains came back into play :-(

driving home was a great chore... almost had to pull over at the weighing station at leigh creek to possibly throw up... but given i haven't thrown up since about 1996, i wasn't about to break a habit... driving with windows open seemed to help with the fresh air flushing through the cabin...

the doctor pushed and prodded his fingers around my stomach just to make sure it wasn't appendicitis.... thank god it wasn't, although i did ask what symptoms to look out for in case it is appendicitis in future and he said "oh don't you worry, if it was your appendix, you wouldn't have been able to cope with my pressing your guts like i just did!"

i think the appendix is the one last thing that i believe is a common ailment in people... all my other things are pretty much dealt with - braces, wisdom teeth, jaw fixed up, chicken pox etc

i did also think maybe had i started with gall stones or something of a stoney nature? i hope not... i've heard of long painful battles of sharp pains in the guts as they are forming or shifting positions...

so another 14 bucks on the credit card to get even more pills to try and fix my problem - 4 antibiotic tablets taken immediately, and that's it... they must be pretty strong to only have the one dosage...

another day off work tomorrow, hoping i can have a good night rest to get better, although having had almost 3 hours nap on the floor this evening, it might make things a bit difficult for a decent night sleep in bed...

i pushed myself to go outside for a bit of fresh air and to change the water in the girls water bucket as they didn't have much left... threw some salad scraps to them too...

meanwhile those bloody ducks in the front yard are still crapping on the driveway like there's no tomorrow....

if i feel better tomorrow i'll go out and clean it off...

so given how knackered i've been today, and the hours of sleep this afternoon, i almost didn't post a blog, i almost crawled into bed straight up but i was instructed to have something else to nibble on and drink some more to replenish my system... so that gave me a last booster for the evening...

but i will push on... i have to get better... i have to earn my keep.... the last thing i'm going to allow myself to go bankrupt over is a bloody illness...

so get stuffed, bugger off, leave me alone, i've had enough

i'm sick of being sick, just let me live my life as healthily as i possibly can

give me a break and help me out by giving me the opportunity and future i deserve, i work so damned hard, i bloody deserve more than a kick in the guts, and this time it feels like a literal kick in the guts!

just stop it already, i don't need any more challenges, i'm sure whoever is out there or up there realises by now that i am good for a challenge and do my best to beat them, but don't keep piling new situations on the top of my head - i'll keep on pushing through but SURELY by now, there must be a reward for my efforts?!!???!!

please?!