well i posted the touch and go 'straight to..... number one' video clip this morning so i guess there's not much counting left... tomorrow's the day...
the house is spotless, the ironing is finished, the last of the washing is on the clothes horse and it should dry before i head off in the morning... it'll look like a display home once again...
i ended up making a last minute call to the medical centre to go and grab a letter from the doctor just to clear myself of any possible problems of a slapelle corby nature whilst overseas.....
i'm proud of my minimalist packing, i was conscious of the bag weighing 100kgs empty, but luckily it was just under 5kgs whilst empty..... my current approximate bag weight is around 12kg so that gives around an extra 10kgs space, should i manage to collect some goodies during my time in portugal...
so i am a bit excited about heading off - finally get to ride a few A380's - i've admired them from afar for many years but now i finally get to experience flying inside one, that's pretty exciting...
the only slight kick in the guts about it all was the phone call to mum tonight... i know she's just being careful and wanting things to go smoothly, but when she basically tries to shove me into a closet again, it makes things a bit hard on me.....
i am well aware that i'm going to be questioned as to why i'm single and not married - it's portugal, it's a given, i've grown up realising that the pinnacle goal of a portuguese person's lifespan is to marry your childhood sweetheart who you met at a mighty 4 years old (or some such)....
obviously by now if that were the case, there would be a skank in my bed every night by the name of kylie..... thank god that is not the case since she has married a cross dresser by the name of glenn... but that's another story for another blog spot lol
so back to the point, i have already given good responses in the past to people as to why i wasn't married off or seeing anyone, and so i think i could manage to do it for a bit longer still, i wasn't about to go out of my way to out myself to every possible person at every possible opportunity...
i told her that i understand it's because i would be an embarrassment to dad, and she tried to knock it down saying it wasn't the case.... i wasn't getting shitty, i was just making the point that i understand how dad thinks and so i know what he'd be like if it did come up, and he would most likely be embarrassed... it's not my problem and i really don't care...
it just annoys me that it always has to come up as a disclaimer for anything that goes on..... that along with anything else "oh don't say xyz to dad just in case of abc happening" etc etc
i know she wants to avoid conflict, and so do i, but it really is at the expense of my brain power....
so then it just makes me think that maybe this would be the last time i try to make effort to visit family over there... i dunno....
it's things like that which make me think that i wished i wasn't a guy who is gay....
but it's not the case so i just have to (once again) get over it...
and that's one of the reasons why i was happy to stay on my current dosage of meds until after the trip at least cause the last thing i would need right now is to be overseas, closeting myself (which i was already going to muzzle anyway), dealing with strangers in a strange land and also coming down from meds.....
it was really good to see people at work and talk about my trip and get lovely wishes for my trip, that's the sort of thing that makes me feel like i have family at work - and i like that feeling
i have my short list of things to do, things to buy for people, postcards to send, and i thought at first that i might have to deal with it asap after getting there just so i got things done and out of the way, but i really have nothing else to do apart from be a passenger for a couple of weeks, so i should just not worry about the timing of things and do things as the opportunity arises....
i think my roaming mobile is going to be ok, just been hard to test it properly being in ballan as the reception is almost non-existent.....
and the newly laid bed sheets were heaven last night - so much so i actually said to teddy that maybe i would just stay snuggled in bed for 3 weeks lol
the house is sprayed, fingers crossed it kills some nasty creepy crawlies while i'm gone.....
might play a few games and wander off to bed soon, i am actually tired so i might just be able to get to sleep without too much hassle of anxiousness.....
bon voyage.......!
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