another dollar, another day

same old routine, in my way

what's there to say about today?

dunno really

work was steady, not as quiet as recent weekends have been

got to catch the train to work and back, that was great, relaxing to not have to focus on the drive up the freeway which meant no stress of possibly falling asleep at the wheel... falling asleep on the train is much nicer - been easy for me to sleep on the train for as long as i can remember, but touch wood, i haven't missed my stop yet...

makes the day at work seem quicker too which was good

then got to see someone at the station on the way home who i thought was a hottie when he was at work... still do think that...

he's got his dream job and good on him - wonder what it must be like to work your dream job...

does it make everything fall into place? do you know that you'll be there until you retire? must be a fulfilling feeling...

that's something that i'd like..

i've always had this idea that when you find a good job, you're there until you retire, but i think those times have changed... i've lost my job a few times with business' going into administration/liquidation... call centres that shift you around as they see fit even if it's not what you originally signed up for... electronic repair shops that have owner's who employ their stupid and psychotic mothers.... data entry work that lasts as long as the work is there so you don't know how long you have the job for....

i guess i realise that job security is now (unfortunately) a thing of the past, and that's really sad. it makes it difficult to be able to plan for your own longer term future...

i suppose when you have a mortgage, that's the thing that you worry about the most.

i'm probably experiencing less medical dramas compared to others, but for someone living for their own self, i think i've been beaten with the medical hockey stick a fair bit... nose operations, facial operations, braces, depression, arthritis, anxiety, now moderate/severe sleep apnea... these things cost me too much money than i care to think about... but health comes first i guess...

i'm sure that one day, without realising, everything will fall into place for me...

until then i'll continue to work as hard as i can in the hope i can get myself in a better position mentally and financially...